Minus the first 2, Probably my most solid group of poems

So I kinda lied, I'm a poem short of what I thought my collection was (which was 21 poems) but either way, most of these are some of my recent stuff. Right now I like them a lot more than my older stuff but who knows? That may change in a few months or so. For some of the poems I've put down suggestions on songs that I felt enhanced their enjoyment. Hopefully you'll enjoy the music too.

Lost on this one way road called life

As I lie on my bed this night,
I realize how lost I am in life,
Dark clouds come and blur my sight,
The rain pours on, bringing a storm of strife,
Directed, Guided, Dictated all my life,
Oppressed, Restricted, with no choice,
Quieted, Molded, Shaped all my life,
No decisions, no freedom, no voice,
Now as this road reaches its next border,
I'm discovering myself, my voice, my mind,
Just as my life falls apart, leaving chaos and no order,
What a mess as I crash and careen into this bind,
Of this one way road called life,
Boxed in, closed off, spun out,
Leaving me with no direction, just strife,
I'm left alone, by myself, I Shout,
On this one way road, I am alone, I am lost,
On this one way road, why is it so hard to be found,
On this one way road, my body gives into the cold frost,
On this one way road, I am alone, scared, afraid to make a sound,

The End

Time

We're Bound by love, Bound by hate,
Now its time to change the world before its too late,
We'r Bound by differences, Bound by ignorance,
Now its time to finally apply millienia of experience,
We're Bound by selfishness, Bound by greed,
Now its time to set the chained people free,
We're Chained by fear, Chained by sin,
Now Its time long overdue since Christ rose again,
Now Its time to raise our voices,
Now Its time to make our choices,
The masses have long been quiet,
Too long have the masses been on a diet,
Of lies, illusions and temptations,
Of glorious lives, cultures and nations,
When none of that even matters,
Because they've all led mankind to disasters,
HIV, AIDS and massacres,
Tell me why we go shopping instead of looking for cures?
No cures for cancer,
Spending money is the answer,
Wars, Genocides and the Holocaust,
Its time to change before all is lost,
To this day racism remains,
We haven't changed, its still here, do we have no shame?
Too content we remain,
Taking pleasure over pain,
So why don't we cope with our greed?
Instead of smoking up some weed,
Why do we try to numb the pain?
Finding a dealer to deal us some cocaine,
Why do people do meth?
When its surrounded with death?
Leave the drug dealer,
Go find yourself a healer,
Cause man needs to be healed,
The truth needs to be revealed,
That we're all the same,
That we share the same fears and pain,
That We all live, We all die,
So why do we turn the blind eye?
To the suffering of others,
When we put down the shutters,
That blind our eyes,
As we tell ourselves lies,
That everything's gonna be alright,
As long as I keep to myself and stay out of sight,
Because this world has nothing to do with me,
Because this isn't a world that I want to see,
But as this is being said,
Another kid ends up dead,
Lost to chaos and madness,
While his mother is left only grief and sadness,
The people stay quiet,
Just waiting to forget it,
As we remain silent in the darkest corners,
While another dead body is examined by the coroners,
So its time to make a change,
In this world that is so strange,
Because its long overdue,
And this change starts with you,

The End

Spring

I will be your spring to welcome you out of that cold winter,
But I know you will leave me for that happy summer,
But patiently I will stay here,
Vigilant and resolute without shedding a tear,
Knowing that I will only be a warm sight,
Whenever you are in need of flight,
From all the troubles you may face,
Because here with me you will always have a place,
Where you can forget and stay warm,
A place you can stay to weather the storm,
Because I am your spring after the winter,
To warm and melt away all feelings sad and bitter,
But that is all I am able to do for you,
Because you as well as I know too,
That there is someone out there for you,
In this world as vast as the great blue sea,
But alas I cannot help but feel saddened that it is not me,

The End

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Confrontations

Countless nights with thoughts spent on you,
Always hoping you would think about me too,
Day by day, these thoughts and feelings growing,
Doubts beginning to grow with the fear of knowing,
That what I feel is unrequited love,
That my head is just up there above,
That cloud number nine,
Where everything is fine,
But I still hold on to that slim feeling of hope,
Because it's always better than having to cope,
With the hopelessness that I'll feel here all alone,
That cold feeling that can reach your bones,
And that fear has hidden the best of me,
The me that you will never see,
Because that fear has locked me away,
Silencing me and preventing me to say,
You're all I ever think about,
You're smile uplifts me when I'm down and out,
You're the light that brightens my day,
You make it feel like everything is going to be okay,
Because you're more than another girl,
To me you're becoming my world,
And its because of that I am scared,
That all those times we shared,
May have only meant something more to me,
And that you might actually be different from what I see,

The End

Looking at myself

Through my exterior, I'm seen as inferior,
Told to be disgusted at what I see in this mirror,
Someone the opposite of beautiful,
Someone who should have been mindful,
Of the foods that they eat,
So that the standards meet,
Of what is deemed to be attractive,
And not someone clearly inactive,
That's how my mind has been conditioned to think,
Of weight loss and exercise pushing me to the brink,
Causing depression and sadness,
Instilling, insanity and madness,
This condition has left my eyes blind,
To all the better qualities left behind,
That it's not just all about how someone looks,
That the body isn't supposed to be the hook,
To be someone who wants to be loved inside,
And not just another person to be shoved aside,
Because I am someone more than how I look,
So look beyond the cover of this book,
Maybe you'll find something more inside,
That beyond the looks there is another side,
To a person like me,
That there is more than what you see.

The End

Music Box

It's been awhile since the two of us have spoken,
One year and nine months since you left my heart broken,
But I just wanted to know if you still have that music box,
Because its song reminds me of the time that we've lost,
Those times when we used to laugh and have fun,
Those days walking hand in hand under the sun,
Those nights spent looking up at the moon,
Those moments by the beach at noon
Because those are the times I can't let go of,
Because you are my one and only love,
Since then I have honestly tried to forget,
But its not so easy when I've loved you since we met,
But I know you had to leave me that day,
I'm just sorry I didn't have anything to say,
Because I never wanted to let you go,
And I'm writing this now to let you know,
And hopefully you'll still have that music box,
To remember those times that we've lost,
Just know that I'll always be right here,
Day after day, month after month, year after year,

The End

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Time Killing

So I don't think I'll actually write much today and most of my stuff in this post will just be copy and pasted poems. Here you go:

Longing

Why is it that I long for your touch?
Why is it that I love you so much?
I never thought that I could feel something like this for you,
Because you were always just another person that came out of the blue,
How was it that you became so special to me?
So special that it was always you I wanted to see,
You just suddenly stood out among the rest,
Someone that I found to be the best,
Still, I don't know why I feel this way about you,
Maybe its because no one can make me smile like you do,
Theres no one clear reason why you are special to me,
Maybe as I continue to be your friend I'll see,
Why it is that you are so special to me,
And why I can't leave these feelings be,
Just another locked up regret,
Of something that I don't want to forget,
So I want to be more than friends with you,
And see if you feel the same way too,
Because I hope to feel your touch,
Because there is no one else that I love so much.

The End


Am...

I good enough to be the one for you?
I the one that shares the same feelings as you do?
I the one that you've been looking for?
I the one that can walk you home to your door?
I the one that you can go to?
So that I can be the one you can talk to,
Because...(Continue with "Because" before each line except the last)
I want to be the one to pick you up when you're down,
I want to be the one who can always change that frown,
I want to be the one who will always be there,
I want to be the one to show that you're the only one that I love for and care,
I want to be the kind of person who can protect you,
I want to become the kind of person that you can always turn to,
I want to be a person that is worthy of you,
So that I won't have to know through words that you share the same feelings as I do,

The End

Trust & Faith

Why is it that I'll never stop believing in you?
Is it because you were the only one I could be true to?
Though you left without a single word to me,
Why is it that I can't just let these feelings be?
I could have just easily let these feelings disappear,
But there was always something that kept them near,
Why is it that you're the only one I can't forget?
Why is it you that I can only picture you and me as a set?
Why is it that there was always something I could share?
Why is it that you were so special that I couldn't even care,
Whether I was embarrassed, scared, or in shame,
Whether I felt happiness, anger or pain,
But you just left and all I could do was cry,
That was all I could do because I never got a chance to say goodbye,
People just keep saying you left me for some other guy,
But no matter what I can't accept that unless I know why,
Did I betray you without knowing?
Did I keep your tears ever flowing?
Did you run to hide this pain from me?
So that there was nothing for me to see,
Or did you feel like you took advantage of me?
Was it something so bad that you'll always feel guilty?
Please I need to know the reason for why you left,
Because not knowing only leaves a heavy burden on my chest,
I only hope that you have no feelings of regret,
And that I can be a person that you will never forget,
But I'll always be here to wait,
Without any feelings of anger or hate,
Because I'll always be the same guy that believes in you,
Because you were the one that I could always be true to,

The End

Why is it so hard to say goodbye?

Do you ever wonder why its so hard to say goodbye?
Do you ever wonder why the only thing you can do is cry?
Do you ever wonder if you'll ever see that person again?
Do you ever wonder if the time you spend with someone will never end?
Do you ever wish to be with that person forever?
Do you ever wish to always be together?
Do you ever wish that you'll never be forgotten?
Do you ever wish that you'll never be abandoned?
Because those are always the reasons why,
Even as time always passes by,
That its never easy saying goodbye,
And that all I can ever do is cry,

The End

Reflection

As the days fly by past me,
I stop to take a look at what I see,
I see my friends enjoying the time they spend,
I see this knowing that soon this time will end,
We will all go our seperate ways,
As we grow older in these coming days,
I stop to think about what I could have done,
I stop to picture how things might've gone,
If I were a different person,
If I had to the chance to start over again,
But things just don't go that way,
Regret fills in these words I say,
But I know its a time that must eventually come,
I only wish that I can do everything I wanted to before this is done,
To be there for my friends as long as I can be,
To do what I've set out to do so they can see,
I have no feelings of regret,
So that I can be a friend they won't forget,
Because as long as they remember me,
I won't ever have to stop and take a look to see,
And leave them something to see,
Something for them to cherish about me,

The End

Insane

Is this the world we want for tommorow?
A world where theres no room for grief and sorrow?
A world where the hope of the future die young,
A world where the people only get one chance and they're done?
A world where a kid can die just when his life is about to begin,
A world where he dies in a short life without committing a sin?
A world where people remain ignorant in silence,
A world where peace is an impossible existence,
So have we closed off our hearts to the light?
Have we ignored doing what we know is right?
Because this is the world we are all growing up in,
A world where the realities are covered up with a grin,
Of the "happy" lives we all live,
Because all we do is take and never give,
So, has this world has become insane?
Has it become so numb it can't feel anymore pain?
We treat every death like its the same,
All we do is find someone to burden the blame,
Does this world not feel any shame?
Or have we let all our emotions go down the drain?
Death has become nothing more than game,
In this world that has gone insane,

The End

Dreaming

I place out my hand trying to reach for you,
But all I can see is you disappearing into the blue,
I call out your name,
But things still stay the same,
You're back is turned to me,
I'm scared of what I might see,
A face full of pain and regret,
A face thats just wishing to forget,
Because of a simple mistake I made,
You're willing to let things just slip away and fade,
Because of my foolishness,
I have left you in sadness,
As I stand in the rain,
It is only now I feel your pain,
And now it is me who is full of regret,
So much that I don't want you to forget,
And so I reach out my hand for you,
So that you won't disappear into the blue,
And I will race after you so that you can see,
How much you still mean to me,

The End

Actually I came up with a pretty nice analogy (at least I think it is) so I'll share it; however, I'm not quite sure if I'll be able to express my analogy in a proper manner.

Peace, Faith, Trust and Love are all like the surface of a lake. The surface of the lake represents the four abstract concepts and like those concepts it can be destroyed, disturbed and disrupted easily. A single action can send ripples destroying that the smooth calm surface of the lake much like how a single action can turn peace into war, faith into doubt, trust into betrayal and love into hate. Now no one wants to leave it at that and everyone wants things to go back to the way they were but you can't make a water's surface still. No matter how much you struggle to still the water through your own actions it will never happen. The same can be said for peace, faith, trust and love. You cannot force peace into your life, you cannot force yourself to have faith in someone, you cannot force yourself to trust someone who has betrayed you and last of all you cannot for yourself to love someone. What you can do is wait for the ripples to calm and for the surface of the lake to go back into its state of calm and stillness. The same goes for four concepts. Peace will always come back into your life on its own, faith will return to your soul, trust will naturally grow for others and love is something that will find you no matter what.

Follow Up

Just as a follow up to my first blog here I have for all of you a batch of poems I wrote a few years back (all unedited and in their original form). Looking back now at all of my work (about 21 poems or so, not a lot), there are a lot of re-used/re-occurring ideas and themes. Whether you would like to say I'm unoriginal or that I'm not as creative I really don't mind. I know it myself and even though I feel like expanding on what I write about I just love to go back to my old ideas and try to write about them in different situations. Well enough of my self-bashing? (I'm pretty sure I just bashed myself but oh well) here to you I present the second poem I wrote.

Leaving Me

You left without a goodbye,
But the again you appeared to me without a hi,
At first glance you weren't special to me,
As time went by you became more than I thought you to be,
It was strange how we first met,
You appeared out of nowhere like a trap net,
Just spontaneously you appeared out of nowhere,
Since you came we had become inseparable as a pair,
At first all we ever did together was fight,
Wishing that the other one of us would get out of sight,
However that would change over time,
As you became more pleasant like the sound of a window chyme,
You would point out all of my mistakes,
And I would try to help you with all your heartaches,
As days went by we began to develop feelings for each other,
I thought that those feelings would always keep us together,
But I couldn't get past something in you,
It was a door to someone but I didn't know who,
Though I tried to help you with past relationships you had,
You wouldn't tell me anything about it which made me sad,
I felt as though I were helpless,
Because I couldn't help rid yourself of your sadness,
But it seems it was more than I could understand,
I couldn't pry deeper, that was something I couldn't demand,
It seems like you've blamed yourself for his death,
As you saw him die slowly while he was taking his last breath,
It must be painful to remember that time and space,
Of such a painful memory that you did your best to erase,
But I guess you need more time to heal,
To rid yourself of all the pain you still feel,
I know that you'll be gone,
But I will always be waiting every dawn,
For your safe return to me,
So I can see you happy as it should be,
Don't worry how I will be,
I'll be fine knowing that you'll come back to me,
However you still left without a goodbye,
But then again I know you'll come back without saying hi,

The End

Rejection

I've just been turned down,

The person who I loved has given me a permanent frown,

I did my best to impress her,

I showed my feelings to her who I considered my lover,

Now shes given me great pain,

Now I'm drowning in eternal rain,

Of the sadness which fills my heart,

Its like my heart has been pinned down by a dart,

Leaving it to overflow with sadness,

Filling it up until there is no more happiness,

I guess I couldn't be with her my first love,

I guess I will only be the ugly duckling, while her being the beautiful white dove,

Maybe I thought I was more than I was to be,

Maybe I thought I was as big as the seven blue seas,

In the end I didn't stack up to the others,

Friends who I was really close with which I considered brothers,

We all liked that one girl,

To us she was our whole world,

She was kind and gentle to each and everyone of us,

She'd be able to stop us getting into a fuss,

She was that kind of girl, the one that you meet once in a lifetime,

A girl that will never be forgotten or misplaced in my mind,

I do my best to look happy in her presence,

Though I still long for her essence,

I hide the pain that I still feel,

Hoping that one day it will heal,

Until that time I will support her and my best friend,

Until the three of us will meet our end,

The End

Where Do I Belong?

Do I belong at this place?

Am I supposed to be here at this time and space?

For these questions I know no answer,

Not knowing an answer pains me harder and harder,

I've searced year by year for people to accept me,

Sometimes just sitting and waiting under a tree,

Observing, waiting for someone to ease my pain,

Someone to be there always, and not betray my trust and send it down the drain,

But now I think i've found a place where I belong,

A place where I can be me, a place where I can feel strong,

But I haven't been there long enough to be certain,

If this is the place for me to stay in,

So until I'm sure I belong,

I need to wait and hold on,

So that I know i'm supposed to be here,

So I won't have to go through all the pain and shed another tear,

The End

You In The Sky

Why did you have to die?

Why is it that when you left me I couldn't cry?

Why couldn't I be there for you?

Why didn't you tell me that you knew?

That you were going to die,

Were you really planning to go without saying goodbye?

Did you want to spare me the feeling of helplessness?

And just spend the rest of your time with me in happiness?

Did you want to spend the rest of your time with just me?

Day by day just sitting under and old oak tree?

Just admiring the birds in the big blue wonderful sky,

Just imagining and wondering how they could get up so high,

You were always dreaming of flying up there,

So much that you brought me to high places which gave me a scare,

Yet you knew you could never go there,

Because of your illness which you wouldn't share,

Yet in the end you did achieve your dream,

As impossible and improbable as it may seem,

But I do know that I saw you go fly with your last breath,

Though it took you all of your strength to fend off death,

You were still able to do it,

Because of your strong will and spirit,

So now I think I know why I couldn't cry,

Because when I look for you I know you'll be up there in the sky,

The End

Empty

Why am I empty inside?

What is it that the pain I feel hide?

I dig and dig but nothing is to be found?

I give up and I just wanna fall to the ground,

Nothing is inside me,

Nothing but emptiness as far as I can see,

I've searched everyday for a reason,

I've searched day by day, season by season,

Still I find nothing,

I still can't find anything,

Everyday I put on a fake smile,

Now all my sadness has built up into a pile,

Everyday all I feel is pain,

All I do ends up being in vain,

I am broken,

Trueer words were never spoken,

Why can't I be fixed,

Why is my mind confused and mixed?

Should I just die?

Without a farewell or goodbye?

All I do is ask,

And hide my feelings behind a mask,

I still don't know why I'm empty inside,

Or what my confusion and pain is trying to hide,

The End

How Do I Say Sorry?

How do I say sorry?

How can I say it while having my pride and glory?

Why is it so hard for me?

Why is not saying it painful to me?

Why do I go to tears thinking about it?

Why does it destroy my happniess and spirit?

Can someone tell me what I should do?

Should I have said sorry earlier which I knew,

Why did I have to say something so irresponsible?

Why couldn't I think things through which would be sensible?

Why am I ignorant to the feelings of others?

Why is it that when I look at people its like looking at shutters?

Why can't I see who I give pain to?

Why did I say it to someone who I was close to?

Why don't I learn from my mistakes?

Everytime I hurt them a piece of my heart breaks,

So why can't I say sorry?

Why can't I say it with my pride and glory?

The End

How Do I Say Sorry?

How do I say sorry?

How can I say it while having my pride and glory?

Why is it so hard for me?

Why is not saying it painful to me?

Why do I go to tears thinking about it?

Why does it destroy my happniess and spirit?

Can someone tell me what I should do?

Should I have said sorry earlier which I knew,

Why did I have to say something so irresponsible?

Why couldn't I think things through which would be sensible?

Why Am I ignorant to the feelings of others?

Why is it that when I look at people its like looking at shutters?

Why can't I see who I give pain to?

Why did I say it to someone who I was close to?

Why don't I learn from my mistakes?

Everytime I hurt them a piece of my heart breaks,

So why can't I say sorry?

Why can't I say it with my pride and glory?

The End

Bright Shadow

Someone stands in the shadows,

Just being the guy that nobody knows,

Always outside the circle,

Always wishing for a miracle,

That someone will notice him,

And that they will bring him in,

This person knows hes got a shot,

To be part of the group and not just fill in an empty spot,

He wants to be noticed,

He doesn't want to be on the short list,

Of the people that are forgotten about,

Of the people that don't get a chance to speak out,

But this is his deepest fear,

To be out there alone instead of over here,

To be alone is death to him,

If no one comes he would gladly die on a whim,

That person is truly sad,

But whats strange is that he isn't mad,

At the world for shunning him,

Instead he is always hoping that someone will come to be with him,

He is the one and only person that I will ever truly envy

Because when someone comes to him he will be happier than i will ever be,

He has a strong spirit,

Someday someone will pass by and notice it,

Until that day ever comes he will be willing to wait,

No matter how much pain he feels his spirit and determination will never break,

The End

Now that I've had the pleasure of sharing these poems with you, I've also re-read them all. They really are laughable to me now. I wrote these 3-4 years ago so back then I was about 14 to 15 years old. By giving you my age then you can probably guess that I am currently 18. Looking back at my early teen years I really was a depressed little boy (not that I'm much better now) but I was feeling rather hopeless back then. Now though I am a bit more mature and not such a whiny child. Still I have to thank that whiny side of me for pushing me forward with writing poetry.

I shall post more recent work as I get through my small collection. As of now I have posted up 7 of the 21 poems (33.3%) so in my next post maybe I'll share another 7.

A Simple Urge

Hello all,

Now I've been thinking about doing a blog for quite a while now not only just to express myself but also to get some exposure for some of my writing. Now I for one know my writing itself is pretty amateurish and no where near as good as I possibly could make it however I still want it out there to be read. Now enough about that here is the earliest example of my attempts at writing poetry way back in my grade 9 year. Its quite old and unedited so this came straight from my head.

Most Beloved

In time this wound of mine will heal,
But what time can't erase is the pain I feel.
Ever since that day I've longed for your touch
Because I have thought of nothing but you so very much.
The first time we met,
All those events were set.
But I could never think of us as a couple,
All I could think about was me being a trouble.
To everyone you were the image of perfection,
And me being with you seemed like it needed a correction.
You were my most beloved
And to you I became devoted.
The feelings we shared
Could have never been compared.
I left you so you could find true happiness,
But my absence from you only left a hole filled with sadness.
To you I became so much more than a friend,
Till the day your time with me was at an end.
The short time we were able to have spent
Has now truly gone and went.
Everything you were to me is gone.
For your heart was something that I couldn't have won.
I was so weak,
But My heart was something you would always seek.
I made you wait for too long
While our tale played out like a sad song.
There was a wall between you and me,
So vast as the great blue sea.
And in the end I left you in the darkness
Because of my shear weakness.
You would never know my feelings for you
And so for all my faults this relationship can never start anew.
We parted ways in much pain
On a sad day when it began to rain.
This is what time can never truly heal.
The loss of a loved one is something I will always feel.
My Most Beloved.......................

The End

Hopefully you enjoyed what you read but I know first hand that it does sound corny. I'll admit that even I laughed while re-reading this poem. Still many of my friends enjoyed it and I'm happy they did. It was a nice feeling knowing that something I wrote made a few people happy and I can only hope it did the same for you.

Anyways that is it for now and I will be sure to upload more of my work (hopefully in chronological order).