Just in an Apologetic mood

Apologies

Whether you see it as truth or lies,
I just want you to realize,
The words here are just to summarize,
All my regrets as I begin to apologize,
There's no amount of words I can say,
That'll make those past troubles seem okay,
As I look for a brighter day,
And try to find my way,
Back to being your friend,
Cause this is not where I want this to end,
And I just don't want to pretend,
That this friendship didn't break but bend,
So I send you this apology,
Meant for you, not about me,
And then maybe you'll see,
That I'm just really sorry,

The End

I want to be your friend again...

This is a rare poem for me since I actually wrote this with someone in mind.

Just a quick entry

First Glance

From that first glance,
I felt like taking a chance,
To try and be your one and only,
To be the one to never make you feel lonely,
But I'm left scared,
To have even dared,
That I could be the one,
So I quit before anything is even done,

The End

So this is just a short poem I came up with to sum up how I usually feel when I meet a cute girl.

New Poems

Just an update on a few new poems I've written.

The Pledge

Fantasy or reality,

Things lost in my sanity,

Because there's something blinding my eyes,

Whether it be truth or lies,

It has taken on this name called love,

And it's something I know nothing of,

But it's something I've never felt before,

Like something that's been hidden behind a door,

But now there's someone in my life,

Someone there to be with me through strife,

To support me and keep me strong,

No matter what comes along,

And though I know not how long this will last,

And if it will be another regret in my past,

I will say this on this day,

I love you and I have nothing more to say.

The End

Inspired by Wall-E's desire to hold hands with Eve.

Holding Hands

I just want to hold your hand,

And maybe then I'll understand,

What it takes to be your man,

Just by being here offering what I can,

Though I know there's not much I can offer,

And sometimes I think I could be a bother,

All I can promise is that I'll be there,

So that you know that I do care,

And by holding your hand,

Maybe you'll come to understand,

That I'm not just another man,

That relationships are possible if you believe the words "Yes We Can".

The End

- Paolo Maquiraya 16/02/09

I know, the last one has an Obama reference in it. Yes, it does sound stupid but I thought it would have been fun to end it off like that.

Discovering and Wondering

I think young teens now rush too quickly into relationships. Now I'm not saying that in those situations it never works out, nothing is ever certain. What I am saying or in this case suggesting is that young teens take their time. I recently re-read a portion of this Japanese Manga (train_man Vol. 2 by Hidenori Hara, released by Viz Media) and there was some dialogue that I wholeheartedly agree with. Here is the exact quote from the volume:

"Here's what I think
...
It's most exciting before you know how each other feels.

You squeeze her hand and she squeezes back
...
Your eyes meet and she gives you a smile
...
You're always on the edge of your seat because you're not exactly sure how she feels
...
Those times are probably the most enjoyable
..."

Unfortunately the character is unnamed and is just drawn as a nameless user on the 2Channel forum however I simply have to agree with what he says. Thinking back on all the girls that I've had a crush on and liked, the most happiest times for me were when I didn't know how they felt. It really was quite a roller coaster ride of thoughts and emotions during those times. Though regrettably none of those emotional pursuits ever went anywhere I always look back at those times and they always bring a smile to my face. Those times where you're discovering more and more about the person you like (whether it goes anywhere or not) are the times everyone should treasure and experience. I think that if people took more time going through all that people will find that right person. Nowadays I think young teens are too quick to pull the trigger and say they're a couple (boyfriend and girlfriend) and that they're dating. In my opinion its exactly that quick trigger relationship that leads to all the drama in their lives. The times may have changed but from this line:

"And Love - it remains the same"

(That line comes from an untitled poem by Tupac Shakur, The Rose That Grew From Concrete, MTV Books) Tupac says it always remains the same. Love will always remain the same so despite the way people go at love just appears to have changed it really hasn't. What people have done is go along with this world's life style of going at things faster. But love cannot be rushed and so I say to all the young teens to take it slow. There's no need to rush.

One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

Everyone has come to affiliate this saying with a lack of progress in their own personal lives but I had a thought about this saying and instead of being such a negative comment it is by far probably the most positive thing that can happen in your life. People get so caught up in their own personal lives that when they see themselves taking one step forward and then two steps back they can only help but feel frustrated for their lack of progress in life. However being put into that situation people get so caught up thinking about their own troubles that they can't stop and take a look around them. That frustration of what appears to be moving back instead of forward is what keeps people from seeing things beyond their own feet. When you feel like you're in this situation take a good long pause and look all around you. You'll see the larger picture that has been laid in front of you. You'll find that instead of blindly pushing on you were able to see that bigger picture that has brought out and that its not just you looking at that larger picture but that everyone else who was so caught up in trying to walk forward is there with you. When you all you see that larger picture you'll find that moving back is the best way to move forward.